Thursday, November 20, 2008

In love but scared

I really cannot believe how in love I am with this man. I never thought I would actually care about someone this much. It really scares me. I never imagined I would have feelings so deeply for someone to the point that I could put everything on the line and risk all of my feelings and take down all of the walls. Through past relationships I had become scared and distant. Now, I have to work to take it all down and that is not easy at all. I want to completely let go and trust in Heavenly Father. The craziest part is that I have received an answer to my prayers and know that if things continue to go as they are going that he is the man that I want to spend the rest of my life with, which is an even scarier thought! Man, I just need to trust in the Lord. If I do that, I know things will be okay and it will all work out just as it should. It is just hard to have that trust and believe that you are making the best choice for your life.