Well Hello There World!

Hello world. It seems as if we moved and fell off the face of the earth, right? We're still here. We love our home. I have enjoyed the fireworks from our balcony, the garage, three bedrooms, a en suite bathroom and a guest bathroom. My own laundry room and central air. A large kitchen with my own appliances. It was high time I had some of my own things. I just love it. It's quiet and beautiful. There are things I want to do it still, sure but it's ours and who cares if any of those things ever get done.

The drive is long to and from work but it gives George and I great quality time together. We listen to scriptures, have a short spiritual discussion, and listen to an audible book. We discuss things that need to be discussed. I love the drives I get to spend with my handsome husband.

We got a cat shortly after we moved. His name is Nicodemus. He is growing way too quickly and he drives us insane sometimes but we love him and can't imagine life without him now.

George is serving as a teacher in High Priests and I am the Beehive Advisor. My calling keeps me running with Tuesday night activities but we have great girls and I am thoroughly enjoying my time with them.

I've watched babies be born and taken nieces to the circus.

Work has been busy and my summer was as busy as ever. I like what I do and am so thankful for the job that I have.

George has begun his last year of school. Oh my goodness, he's almost done. HE'S ALMOST DONE! He is applying for jobs, getting ready to apply for graduation. He's asking me where I want to live. It's definitely all nerve wracking. Life is getting ready to change again forever. I'm so excited for the changes that are to come and nervous also. I have a really good life and I am so thankful for it. I'm excited to see what adventures the next year brings.

We're Moving

Oh my goodness, oh my goodness, oh my goodness. I can't believe this is really happening. We are moving. We bought a condo. We're picking up the keys tonight. We're moving Saturday. It's all happened so quickly and yet it seems this whole process was so slow.

Richard Kemp was our realtor and did a great job in helping us every step of the way. We are very grateful to him and his help.

It seems like our lives go in strange stages and George and I never know where we are going to be led next but this one was definitely led by Heavenly Father. We're excited to see what's in store.

We are moving Saturday morning and would love help if you have help to give.

Woo hoo!!

Happy Easter

I wanted to express my love for our Savior and Redeemer on this Easter Sunday. I am so thankful to our Father in Heaven for sending his Son to give his life for us. Because of Him we are saved. Because of Him we are forgiven from our sins. Because of Him we can be with those we love and have lost again. I am so thankful for Him and know that it is only because of Him and His sacrifice that I am able to make anything of my life. I love Him and strive to be more like Him.

Limbo Land

We're in limbo land. It's exciting, nerve wracking, stressful, and so much fun all at once. We are waiting for our condo to be finished, for our loan to go through, and for closing and then we can move. Our hope is that everything will be finished and that we'll be able to move by the end of the month!!

We are so excited for this new chapter in our life. Yes, it's a condo and we said we'd probably never buy a condo but we feel like we're going to the right place at the right time. Everything happened so quickly. We weren't even considering buying, we were planning on staying right where we were but then something just felt right and we went for it.

We're sad for the changes. We've been in a good ward. George has done a good job with maintenance at the apartments. But it is time for a change. We've been married for six years, we're in our mid-30's. We are not babies anymore. George is getting ready to graduate next year. Is it possible that we'll have to leave the state? Yeah, maybe. But we don't believe we would have been guided to where we are going if things wouldn't work out.

I'm psyched for that kitchen!! We can't wait.

6 years ago

6 years ago today, I married the man of my dreams. I'll be honest, I really didn't think that day would ever come. I was convinced no one would ever love me and that I would be the old spinster aunt with a couple cats but who would take her nieces and nephews on awesome trips. Then George came along when I least expected it.

We balance each other out and keep each other sane. There have been tons of struggles for us and we've been through a lot of ups and downs but we've made it through together. Because of him, I am still standing through those trials.

6 years has flown by. Sometimes, I can't believe it's been that long but I thank Heavenly Father for this man daily. I know I'm blessed and I'm so thankful he found me.

This year for our anniversary, I'm getting an awesome gift. We are purchasing a home. It'll come with new challenges but I'm so excited to be moving on to another new experience with him.

I love you George to infinity and beyond!!

My Decision and a Myriad of Other Things

I'm not a very confident person. I never have been and that throws some wrenches in life and in my work. I'm going to work on that and not worry as much about what everyone around me thinks about me. That's no way to live my life. Worrying every second that I'm going to do or say something wrong. You know what really matters? What my Heavenly Father thinks.

Because of the things that I've learned over the past few months, I have a sudden need to eliminate the pressure I feel and simplify a little, I decided to pretty much get rid of Facebook. I'll leave it up for family, especially family far away but I just don't want to see every thing that is going on in everyone's lives and all of the videos and the articles and everything else. It just isn't good for me. I'm spending too much time on social media and honestly, a lot of times it makes me feel like crap.

My blog I can do. It is my outlet, my place to express my feelings and sort of a journal. It's for me. I don't have to read anything else and I can feel good about where I am in my life. If people want to see how I'm doing, they are welcome to read here or to email me, call me, or text me. Same for me. I want contact with people but I can do the same with them.

I judge myself a lot based on other people. I judge my worth as a woman when I see all the moms posting about themselves and their babies. I judge my weight and my size and how I look when I see all the articles about health and body. I judge my relationship with my husband when I see the posts about having an exciting date night. I judge my budget, our ability to travel, our debt, our lack of owning a home, etc and so forth. I think when you have a personality that is not confident and gets so easily down on himself/herself, then it's time to cut some things out. Facebook is that for me.

I hope that helps in understanding my decision for myself. In fact, I'm not even sure why I need to justify that decision but there it is.

On to life:

Children Front: The last time I wrote, I posted that I was going to go in for an HSG test to see if I had any blockages in my remaining tube. We went in for the test the week of Thanksgiving and unfortunately, it came back that I have a blockage.

So what do you do when the best option to try to have a biological baby is IVF and costs $15,000 and no other options feel right? You take some time off to think, get healthy, and save some money for whatever option you are going to pursue whether it be IVF, a gestational carrier, adoption, or foster care. Right now none of our options feels like the right option so we are taking some time to think, to feel, to pray, and to make sure we do what is right for us.

Birthdays: I got older last month. I can't believe I'm 34. Really, I'm starting to lose track of my age. Plus it starts to feel old when your husband and your doctor remind you that you only have through your 35th year to do an egg retrieval. lol. Thanks for making me feel even older. Your clock is ticking woman.

School, Work, Church: Between the two of us, three jobs. That keeps us hopping enough to drive us insane. Add in school which keeps the rest of George's schedule pretty packed. Lastly church and being in primary and the adventures to go with that and George being financial clerk, it seems that we barely have time to see each other.

We are busy people and have a lot of stuff going on that is fulfilling and stressful all at the same time but don't we all. Lots more adventures in our extended family too. Life is just full of excitement. We shall see where this year takes us!